Heather Essian bio picture
  • Hey there! I'm Heather, wife to Jim, Pastor of The Paradox Church, and Mama to two beautiful girls, Harper and Hollis. I'm a Jesus lover, crafting lover, and really a lover of all things creative! I've had the pleasure of photographing lovely people for over 13 years now! I've recently started a fun new journey designing baby and toddler clothing. Stay tuned, I'm sure I'll be sharing some of my designs soon!

    This blog is a place for me to share my current photography work, my creative work, as well as some of my personal journey. I have a heart to encourage and love on other women. I hope this will be a place where we can all share in our creativity as well as learn a little bit about Jesus and His goodness. I hope you'll come back and visit often!

More grace please


you’ve been up and down and in and out of the kitchen no less than 157 times today to fetch water, milk, snacks, meals, maybe a few dishes here and there. You’ve changed a bagillion diapers, and wiped little hineys, you’ve kissed boo-boos, wiped tears, spent what feels like the entire day getting a baby to nap, you’ve broken up toy fights, disciplined, taught important life skills and lessons, cuddled, read a million books, made forts, played games, went to the park, took some to school, emptied and loaded the dishwasher (probably twice for the love) and oh yeah…you did a couple of loads of laundry. You working Mama’s did much of this AND went to work all day. Tonight you’ll provide a meal for your family and continue to pour out until probably 9:30-ish or later. And some of us will be up in the night pouring out for little babies, or sick babies.

You guys…your work as a Mama is SO valuable.  If at the end of the day your home is a little messier than you would’ve liked, if you’ve gotten yourself put together less than you would’ve liked, if you’ve worn your yoga jammies pants longer than you would’ve liked, if you got more frustrated than you would’ve liked, if you didn’t do as many fun activities as you would’ve liked…and goodness if you forgot your friends birthday despite the facebook reminders…Remember this; Have MORE GRACE for yourself. This raising little-people-thing is hard, laborious, amazing work.  When you sigh deeply at the end of the day in near defeat, and promise to “do better” tomorrow, write this on your heart;
He is your portion:
Lamentations 3:24
“The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.” 
When you think you need to do “more” or do better, stop that stressful mess and let’s just rest in Jesus:
Psalms 16:1
Preserve me, O God, for in you I take refuge. 
“Preserve me!” Oh man that hits me. Some days I feel so depleted I might as well be another crumb stuck in the rug.
He is your strength:
John 15:5
5 I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.
One last thing for you sweet, Mama; It’s hard for us all, you’re not alone! And you’re not crazy. It really is this hard some days. I often find myself at the end of a challenging day wondering if it’s as hard for other Mom’s as it is for me?!
When the sun has set and you scoop your baby in your arms and get ready to tuck them into bed, you give them kisses and tell them you love them to the moon and back, and that’s exactly the way God deals with you at the end of your not-so-perfect-day. No good performance required, because HE knows that apart from him you can do nothing.  I’ve been preaching this to myself all week! Grace upon grace upon grace…
Facebook Share|Tweet Post|Email Post|Contact Me|Pin Post
September 25, 2014 - 8:48 pm

Merrie - So needed this – have really struggled with going back to work 4 days a week, managing the house, moving and being up 2+ times in the night! Everything you have said has hit home x

September 25, 2014 - 11:51 pm

admin - Oh it’s so hard, Merrie! Especially with not getting a full of night sleep. My little Liss still doesn’t sleep through the night but maybe once a week and she’s almost two!

Wallberg Family

Every summer my little family travels up to MI to visit family…we stay in a family cottage on beautiful Higgins Lake.  It’s a dream! The water is crisp and the most beautiful color of  blue.  If you didn’t know better you might think it was the sea.

While I was there I had the absolute pleasure of photographing my friend, Elizabeth and her sweet little ones.  These photo capture their love and will always remind this sweet Mama of what held things together amidst a difficult time.  I love that about photos…They have a way of redeeming hard seasons for us and reminding us of the good times.  Capturing the most important things in life, that being those we love most. <3

Facebook Share|Tweet Post|Email Post|Contact Me|Pin Post