Today is one of those days…(but it aint over yet.)
The morning started off with a sweet little toddler who demanded to be held, and nothing could appease her. No big deal right? We all have an extra needy day here and there. And without throwing anyone under the bus, someone in our house has needed a lot of extra needy days lately. Bless her.
By grace I’ve been able to handle these days with love and patience. But for some reason today I’m frazzled. Climbing out of bed and dealing with it first thing this morning could have something to do with it.
“But first, Coffee and Jesus.”
I found myself a little put out by the clingy-yell-at-you-all-morning-nothing-will-make-me-happy tantrums…Duh? It’s hard isn’t it? Especially in the midst of doing dishes and laundry. (I just want a clean house!) That’s a whole other blog post, dears.
My feelings would shift from frustration to something thought provoking…
My inner monologue went something like this; “do you have anything better to do, Heather? You’re with your girls, teaching them how to be little people. Teaching them how to handle feelings, and mapping the course for them. That’s important work, no?!” So for a minute, after this ground shattering inner monologue, I found peace and value even in the difficulty of the day. But sure enough as the hard morning unfolded my own emotions would take over and then frustration was alive in my heart again. I had a lovely circle of repentance, peace, repentance, peace..repentance, PEACE! It was epic. I asked for forgiveness of my girls a couple of times. We all had our share of asking for forgiveness, as none of of us responded well today…My how sweet it is to hear your 3.5 year old say “I forgive you Mommy.” And your 20 month old nod her head “yes.”
So as I sit here during this nap time recovering from the goings on (praise be to God), just minutes after praying and asking for MORE peace, I realized that not only prayer would get me through this day…
I need a scripture to stand on and this is the one I have on repeat:
God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns.
Mama’s, the goal in parenting is not perfection. Who can attain that? But one thing I do know is this; as we model grace, patience, kindness, joy, and peacefulness…we also model imperfection and hearts that turn to Jesus when we’re overwhelmed. We model the willingness to confess and ask for forgiveness when we’ve missed the mark. So as I anchor my heart to Jesus right now, I receive His unending grace for me as a Mom and stand in awe of the beauty of forgiveness…
And so should you.