I’ve been bursting at the seams to tell this current story God is writing, but I’ve struggled to find the words, to find the balance of sharing it, and quite frankly the time. Here I am: A stay-at-home mom, a wife to a pastor, and a newly part-time business owner.
I’ve had so many ask about my business, how it’s going, and why I chose to move out of the studio space. Most look at me funny when I tell them that I stay home with Harper, and only work very part-time now. I’ve worked so hard the last 5+ years to build the business, why stop the momentum?
This transition from fancy-artist-photographer to broom-holding-diaper-changer has been humbling to say the least! Today if I’m honest, I’m struggling a bit with finding my identity in photography. No specific reason, just the feeling of being a has-been. Unfortunately, I’ve secretly feared people forgetting about me and forgetting about my photography work. But I pause, and remember what’s really important. Keep your eye on the prize Heather, He’s called you to so much more.
September 30th was the last day that I had my beloved studio space…with the option of renewing the lease I knew that God was calling me away and in a different direction. A direction He’s been pointing me in for what seems to have been 5 years. I was building my business with a great plan while He knew that it’s course would be changed. I reflect fondly on how God has worked in my business. I went from no work to always being busy the first two months of officially launching. I even had the joy of teaching and speaking at a couple of workshops, a long time dream of mine and one that I hope to keep accomplishing. I’ve had the opportunity to travel to other countries to photograph weddings. What a blessing! Fast forward to now, and I know that this is not the season for me to seek more praise of my work, but to be homeward focused and to do it well.
I’ve made a billion mistakes in this last year, but I think I’ve finally learned the balance of home-life and business life. I’ve learned that this delicate balance is redefined each month as my family has different needs. I want to greet my husband in the evenings with a sweet kiss, and a happy hello. I don’t want to miss one minute of loving on Harper and teaching her through each milestone. I want to make the time to encourage, and spend quality time with my friends. I wasn’t always good at being intentional with my friendships while running my busy business. I’m thankful to have strong friendships that I now value, instead of expect. Being too busy makes it quite easy to become self-important, and excuse regularly serving others, you know? It sure is for me anyways…I’m thankful for gracious clients, a gracious husband, and a gracious God that allow me to stumble my way through!
So…all of this is what I’ve spent the last year learning…and yet still learning. I’m having to give the photography business back to Him over and over again. When things get overwhelming, I simply remember what I consider is success for me according to what He has called me to in this specific order…
Am I seeking the Lord?
Am I being a good wife?
Am I being a good mom?
Am I being a good friend?
Am I being a good business owner?
Do these things well, and do them to the glory of God.
Thank you to my friend Arden Prucha for the photo of me in the studio. How proud and thankful I am of the accomplishment of my own studio. It was a wonderful 3 years in that space!
And thank you to my sweet friend Kim Jones for the lovely portraits of our family!!